Wow, haven't been here in ages - what I need is a miracle

I haven't blogged in ages.

Mainly because things were awsome for so long.  Mainly because thing then turned to crap.  I'm not one to boast/moan.

But, what I need now is my baby dog Ella Bean to come home to me.

I had a feeling I shouldn't have brought her to that friend's house, but a play date with another dog seemed like a great thing.  Who knew she would run off.

The last few months have Ibeen exceptionally hard for me.  And my little dog has been a source of love, life, and snuggly affection I grew to count on.  I feel like I let her down, and in turn let myself down.  On top of everything else... I kind of feel like the universe really hates me right now - and is laughing at my sorrow.

All life - dog, cat, fish, friend, husband, lover, baby, child, parent, family in life....are precious.  I remember our morning snuggle on Tuesday morning, her excitement about meeting a new dog, her crazy little wiggling tail, her love of squeaky toys and pizza crusts. My ultimate hiking companion and comforter.  She is the best dog I can imagine for me.

I hope I find her.  But if not, I hope she's with good people.  And if not, I hope she knows she is loved.  By me, my family, and the many folks helping me look for her.  She is worth sleepless nights.  She is worth tears.  She's my first baby, my little furry, snuggly cuddle bug.

Don't stop, be-lie-eving.  That's my ring tone on my sister's phone.  That's the song we heard while looking for you tonight pup.  Mama's looking for you, monkey.

Yes, this is pathetic, but if there's one thing I know is true in this world, is that I love that little dog, and I know she loves me.  Please come back to me safe.